how intersting that must be
sitting up

when one awakes

holes in the heart
the mind

we went on a new walk
in hot sun unexpected

i stood to view nannau afar
covered the scar for fear of
infection

again

for fear of being me

i behaved impeccably
i feel apart from the
photograph incident

is she home?
is the cat still home?

i can walk miles quietly

yesterday the planes flew over low
the mind cleared of the news of him
dying

we carry on

good morning
summer morning
knapweed patch
is flowering well

6.19 am
yesterday after work i got the news
that another had died sudden

there was nothing could be done.

so it goes.

before the news it was a lively day
mostly
at mill

two splendid folk especially
that will remain
in memory

i remember their names
i remember their shoe sizes

at home
the news came
and i wearied

the day quietened

so it goes

James

classic fm
wifi ok

Ps. forgot to say that I visited the Bala antiques chapel yesterday
and bought an old carboard package for Lux soap flakes
He was there and gave me a cake, then with a little support tried to play an old bugle while a customer played the hunting horn.
It was all very funny, he is very funny,

i may understand
yet
it is family
making memory
especially
the tent idea

this weather

the air the feeling
of being outside

a taste of freedom
with slight discomfort

yesterday i lunched out
tempura
and thought of you

your painting

today i paint
in my bala studio
put the collage together
i left it stewing nearly
a week ago

it has been an odd
sturdy time

with repairs and humbling
citcumstances

the recovery engineer came grumpy
to change my wheel so i talked to the recycling
man instead

he deals with electrical goods waste

enjoy the family
i have three cats too
mostly outdoorsy

Sonja
6.26
quiet
no sounds next door
yet
his car is there
i can see it if i lean out the window
he is a farmer

They said it was fixed yesterday.

It wasn’t.

Asked me to do checks.

I made excuses so an engineer is coming.

They say.

Yesterday I made pancakes.

8.07 am
using mobile phone
different rhythm
predicted makes
capitals

by talking of it you hold it tight

while needing to move on.

while moving on it is good to

talk of it sometimes

to bring it back

a while.

it is a smart bike with just a capital for your name
this morning which
bodes with rain & pastural lyrics

i see there is a little rack on back for your shopping

nice

i had a basket on the front for that and later days
the little dog

before she died

i thought of another bike yesterday
walking down the track

it is busy now with the summer here
it never used to be                now it is
very popular to be avoided by
folk like me

who enjoy being solitary

she talked a lot and that is ok
i gave myself breaks and looked about

i do find people interesting yet it is
good to pull back inside later

the i/me

you have bears?

my other self
when things get rattled

i watched a documentary regarding brexit
the bear sighed.

with a full stop after

i have worked with niches before
in aberaeron

now i stay local
or dispay on holiday

your name

with a capital letter as has she

regards to you both
today this lovely day
without a comma there

friday 19 july
news talks of dreadful car crash
&
america shooting down a drone
while
birds sing

your words on coffee rattle my buds while drinking tea. mine later

today brings a dryer aspect, it rained most of yesterday that light refreshing stuff

i looked at the nest and they were staying inside

the day had an odd energy & i felt strung out by evening

listened to music & watched the rain

calls came and visits are cancelled today

so later here than regular, deciding things will change

i too will have like to live more remote

i will try secluded

private

i see the full moon is coming & all will be prepared

to hide or live face on

did he burn the book due to his beliefs do you think
or simply a nasty bloke

do you know that word?

bloke

i wonder it’s origins & whether it paints a picture of me
my upbringing
my culture

so we carry on
we carry on

this has been a daily thing
a pattern

all things change with time

enjoy this day
friday
7.19 am
pink light

we do not worship

false idols

we tried that.

we prefer the birds.