early morning
as if last week is forgotten
it is not
somerset is pretty
and while i enjoy
i feel that some do not
it was nice you kept in touch again
thank you
it is good to have friends
to reconnect on returning
much to think about
to keep to myself
to not mess with other
peoples’ perceptions
finding it easy to stay offline
yet feel the need to get back to working
i ate free fruit and saw a one horned cow
hope the laundry is neat
that you are well
returning to autumn
gradually
have not played chess for years
never found a partner
i think i work best alone
we have touched on this before
he mentioned a cross word
i told him of both my excitement
and failure
in this department it may
be best to stay from the edge
we are a little inland here
and feel it is safer overall
although i like to see the sea
hold on to the trees
she said that we all make mistakes
that it is best to know how to correct
them
not to mull over
get on with it
get over it
that was a long time ago
yet look i still remember
still mend things
glue and string
clues leave me restless
i told him of the music misunderstanding
he touched my hand
kindly
the kittens will be kept safe? if i lived near
i should have them
i think it sounds like a bounty bar
which we have in two parts
the coconut sticks in the teeth
to suck out later
yes i was a maid back then
worked mornings time off
all afternoon
until it all went wrong
things change
we change with that
dear lord a busy hotel
for you. i cannot imagine
my laundry comes each week
to collect one sheet, one
duvet cover
sometimes one bolster case
brings it back nicely on fridays
you must be steaming
i walked the garden yesterday
the longer grass was cut, bagged
and is out for recycling
sadly i find a grass snake
strimmed and dead
smooth silky to touch
plans for the edges come
into mind
plan to make things manageable
leaving it looking natural
leaves are turning slowly daily
except at the turning
maentwrog
they go first always
and suddenly
this time of year
it seems we all have to apply
for an updated version
not prepared
for all the enthusiasm
the website went down
so phoning for a paper application
as often easier
the assistant refers to me as
her love
as in my love
assumes i cannot use the internet
her love asks why the update
and it is explained that it is for fraud prevention
it seems
too many dead people are travelling by bus
these days
i will wait a while
she says that the paper forms are not yet printed
my love
the bear remains very quiet
listening
researching
you may remember in the past
how he spoke to me of his
sadness and disappointment
his fear about the future
his fear about all things
political and general
he spoke to me of how he
will like the kindness
his nationality
the climate gently
now he just looks at me
sadly
some times it all comes at once
full on
then later
all goes quiet here and there
there may be a need to take more sandwiches
with butter to keep the energy up
i took a yoghurt only and came very hungry
and fueled up with peppermints in the
afternoon
the note came by post
with no need to answer written
with pencil
in this eight day period
i will say the same to you
with typing
from monday to friday next week
there will maybe be no message
from me
clean laundry from you to
help the maids
here we call them housekeepers
while the customers regard
things their own way
and my lip is buttoned
7.20
window misted
bird on the ledge
you may call them potato chips
in a packet all salty?
my house cat precious
likes mushrooms
a lot
raw and squidgy
she likes the leavings of salad
while the wild ones enjoy
out of date yogurt
from the bus yesterday i saw
a field of knapweed all gone
over
still beauty in the seed heads
the film was about a man who
saw beauty
about his mother abusive, manipulative
about my travelling to see it
about sitting with others
feeling differing things
opposing opinions
the film yesterday changed things
she said even small people can
change the world
i hope it is so
we are published now
yellow hammer
some still sit quietly at home
and let it drift
a few do not
that ice cream thingy must be a local thing
to you
i cannot think of anything here
like that
only a sweet made with wafer and marshmallow
that looks like one
i used to buy ross’s puff candy
i had 3d on wednesdays to
spend
major decisions what to buy
never crisps
i was not allowed
told
they were a waste of money, only potato
my brother bought them for me
when he worked
it came our secret
i have them now of course
as many as i like
they did not have any logs at the store
not had any all summer either
i think i will find another supplier
local
been trying a more fresh fruit
and veg diet
gave me a belly ache
last eve
serves me right
back to the bread today
then
for breakfast
before a trip to aber arts
for the film
6.44 am
still dark
stomach settled
with latest headlines
it may be a small voice
small talk
strong syllables
rather than shouted blasphemy
is that what you mean by small talk?
or do you mean idle conversation
about nothing in particular
i can do that too
we talked about carrots that evening
prompted by a stranger
how do you cook them or do you
eat them raw and grated
great that one can cut them differing shapes
she said she decides how to cut them according
to the accompanying veg
or company
you know if you are with friends it is good to
eat them easy
without bits hanging out
of the mouth
is that what you mean by small talk?
or do you mean words of one
part
not too many syllables like
that last word there
or tiny words squeaked like a mouse
very quietly
i can do that too
i can write small talk with voice
