Monthly Archives: June 2016

day 7

while all around is broken, shall we mend

and tidy this little bit.

shall we change the linen, white and clean.

lean toward a better place round us, start again?

shall i sleep , stay quiet and try to understand

some things, knowing i will never know it all.

shall i love thee not in any biblical sense,

for our minds have changed irrevocably.

click here and you will find some meaning

at least.

i have started a new pattern, using a plainer

stitch for strength and stability.

#bear.

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another country

grandma came from malta, or was it

gibraltar, anyhow dad was very dark.

his hair remained so, with help and support.

i came from england to live here with you

#thebear.

also from another country.

i hear there is trouble in the village.

yes. i am scared they will shout

and say go home.

another country.

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. laundry day .

tried to persuade him to leave the bed.

nice clean sheets today. no, i am staying

in the raggled mess .

like our government*

you know of such things, and what about

the laundry man, he comes tomorrow.

he will be disappointed.

send the cover, keep it clean so no one

notices the mess underneath.

isn’t that what they* do?

isn’t it?

yes.

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. the bear is still in bed .

so you are still in bed?


yes

are you not feeling any better?

no. it is like a bombshell, with

the bomb left in it. boom and my

little world i loved is shattered.

all my things are the same, yet

something shifted. i am bereft.

i cannot help, i am the same.


yes i know.

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. tried and sad .

should the bear be chipper, look to the good

that is not aparently there. bear the shame

and sadness bravely and never mind the politics.

should he take the postive diatribe in his stride,

or go back to bed?

leaving has made a terrible headache.

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apparently
əˈparəntli/
adverb
adverb: apparently

as far as one knows or can see.
“the child nodded, apparently content with the promise”
synonyms: seemingly, evidently, it seems (that), it would seem (that), it appears (that), it would appear (that), as far as one knows, by all accounts, so it seems

diatribe
ˈdʌɪətrʌɪb/
noun
noun: diatribe; plural noun: diatribes

a forceful and bitter verbal attack against someone or something.
“a diatribe against consumerism”
synonyms: tirade, harangue, verbal onslaught, verbal attack, stream of abuse, denunciation, broadside, fulmination, condemnation, criticism, stricture, reproof, reproval, reprimand, rebuke, admonishment, admonition;

. walking .

yesterday i told her of my cynicism,

my issue with predictions, using phrases

that were a load of.

she agreed heartily plus i told

you so, look at the bench marks.

so i carry on without you. it is

not about money

or recognition.

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reading asher lev

mostly read on the internet,

news, politics, all the rhetoric, yet

i have my favourites.

days that lack

deep concentration.

i mentioned earth &heaven.

not asher lev.

it remains the same.

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the star

it is a different sort of tired,

hard to expain.

did i walk miles, yes.

that was invigorating. did i

clean the house, yes.

that was satisfying.

did i sit quietly thinking,

then place a few

things together. yes.

that was exhausting.

the star.

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. genes .

patrwm is welsh for pattern.

pattern can be lovely, grand

and decorative.

some can be ugly.

repetitive.

it is part of the family.

genes.

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. dressing .

lift the cotton, look again.

cover the place with whiteness.

pink is pretty, white is clean.

they do not want to see it

today, a reminder of fragility.

they wish to spend freely

in this place, not care

for these things.

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